For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. 16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.
— Psalm 139:13-16 ESV

God made you set apart. In this Psalm, David was declaring the truth that God fearfully and wonderfully made David. David cries out to God and says "For you formed my inward parts. You have knitted me in my mother's womb. I praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made." He spoke the truth over himself that God knew him from the inside out. David can praise God for the way he was created because God makes no mistakes. God created us on purpose with purpose. The Psalm then goes on to say that we cannot hide from God. He knows us deeply, more than we know ourselves, and is faithful in bringing His works to completion. 

The things that make you different are intentional. For most of my life, I believed the lie that I wasn't good enough. That somehow, for whatever reason, I needed to strive to earn my place. This led to destructive thought patterns of hating my appearance. Because my appearance, to some degree, was something that I could not change. I could dress myself up and fool others into thinking that I took care of myself, but really there were deep rooted lies within me. That how I was created wasn't good enough. It took repeatedly choosing to agree with God's truth over my own for these lies to be broken off. I had to say yes to His truth whether or not I fully believed it yet. I had to believe that the words that I spoke over myself really did bring life. Then one day it finally hit me. If I believed in God, than how could I not believe in what He says? If He loves me, than how could I not choose to love myself? If He was worth it to me, than why wasn't I treating myself like He was worth it?   

Surrendering to Him is worth it. Towards the end of the Psalm David declares, "Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them." God knows you better than you know yourself. This isn't just some Christian saying. This is something that you can give yourself to and rely on. If He knows the days that were formed for you, then He knows why He created you. He has a plan for you and a purpose for you to fulfill. When you live out of that place, then there's no sense of striving with Him. You can choose to surrender yourself to your Father everyday because He loves you so much that He will never stop pursuing you. You can't mess your purpose up when you are actively trying to be in His will. He's got you in the palm of His hand. 

pray

God, I believe that I am your intentional creation. I believe you to be a Father that formed me from my mother's womb and made me with a purpose greater than my own. God I ask that you would help me live out of a place of full confidence through intimacy with you. I love you, AMEN. 

- Sarah C.